a letter to friend

dear friend,
I am writing to you because I know you listen and understand. I hope you don't think I only talk to you because I have a problem. It's not. I just know that your opinon and advice is the one I trust the most, some times more than mine. I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and won't try to judge me or get mad at me for what I'm thinking or doing. I just wanted to talk to you.

I seem to put myself through these bad situations with out even trying. I know I'm over eliza ( I just miss her, which I know is only natural) so I tried to date someone else. I went on one date with her and I'm not sure If I want to continue anymore, which I hate saying because I really thought I found what I was looking for(at least for now). I don't mean to sound shallow but she's not my "type". She's a very nice person, but I just feel a bit uncomfortable with her. Some people probably wouldn't feel that way, but I do.

I think I just need to spend sometime on my own, not see anyone and not worry about who Im dating. Every one I talk too either just agrees or just goes along with what I say. I don't expect you to have any answers and I don't want any pity or anything like that. I just want to talk to someone, and do it with out crying. I think you of all people would understand. At least I hope you do because other people look to you for strength and friendship and it's that simple. At least that's what I've heard.
I miss what I had and I don't like what I have.

I miss you,
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