idk

I've been feeling really lonely today. Especially at lunch. One of my friends, (we'll call him d) came over to where I was sitting (alone of course), said hi. Then he said he needed a drink and left. I saw him starting to come back to my table or at least that what it looked like but he just kept on walking in another direction (d is friends with my xgf). So I figured he didn't want t sit with me or even invite me to sit with him since he was sitting with our friend J and my xgf (I definitely would not have minded to sit with her). Then I say xgf and she waved and I waved in response. No invintation, no stopping by. Three days ago we were chating. Today she just waved. Yeah like I felt wanted. I miss her. I want to be with her so much. Im not even sure, she's not even sure if she wants to be with me.