Im driving myself crazy!

Im driving myself crazy! WHY! I went to my pro studio art class. Whitney was there, I sort of talk to her. I don't know why I didn't go to talk to her more. Well I do know why. First thing I was really nervous and the second, emily is in the same class with me. At first it was awkward, I would briefly, unintentionly glance at her and she would look really pissed off. Half way through the class we took a break and emily and I were the only ones in the room. I broke the awkwardness and asked how her vacation was. She responded like a normal humanbeing. Which was good.

I briefly talked to whitne but I wished I talked to her more, but I was just too nervouse, espically since it was the first day of school and I felt like emily was constently staring at me. Hopefully next class I will get to talk to whitney more and maybe have some kind of actual converstaion.

I think I have a fear of not being in a relationship and being alone for the rest of my life. Its nothing serious. I don't foolishly and do stupied things. I do that because I don't think straight, but then again who does. I just really like it when Im in a relationship with someone and every time I see emily in person or read something about her in facebook (like how she's engaged) or just seeing a picture of her, hurts me and makes me want to be with someone (even if its her, but then I remind myself thats the worst idea ever and I would never do that).