It wasn't bad

Since I wanted to go running today and return the zion movie today I decieded to run to Blockbuster, return the movie then run back. It was a pretty good run to, 4miles in 32:37 thats like a 8 min pace. Not too bad.

At around 5:30 Ryan came over and I cooked up my shepherds pie remix. It came out pretty good, I was quite pleased with it. Mom, Dad and Ryan liked it as well. Cooking it was fun too, I wouldn't want to do it as a job but casually it was fun. Ryan brought a brownie truffle, very sweet, very rich, very good. We had a good time at dinner.

I finally saw that movie shopping. It wasn't bad.

Lately I've been getting kinda depressed. I don't know why, lack of compianionship maybe? Don't like my job? All of the above? just sometimes I just don't want to do anything and I don't find enjoyment or a reason why I should like it. IDK. I think I've gotten so attached to having a gf that I need one to be truely happy. It's not the sex or any of that. It's just being able to be close to someone. Someone to hold and someone to hold you. I certainly can't do that with a guy like Ryan. Unless I was gay or bi. I guess I just need to keep on pushing until something better comes along.