one more week left!

This week is my last week at Sewards. July fourth is my last day of work, my independence day from sewards! July 7th I'll start my job at PEG. Very exciting stuff. Over the weekend I helped dad put a record onto a cd. The quailty is really good. Dad said it sounds better than the record. Im very close to finishing my latest album, How to survive in a new worl order. Just need to finish the art work. I've been training my replacement at Sewards. Hopefully he'll work out. I wanted to give the little kid, kurt his card today but they didn't come in. Im thinking of asking ashely, one of the waitresses, if she could call me when they come in on next sunday. I would like to give it to him in person. I saw a friend of mine went through a break up. I sent her a message telling her Im here if she needs someone to talk too. I hope she's alright. She didn't seem herself, at least on facebook.

five shirts for five dollars!

I was sitting at the computer getting the final mixes for my cd ready to burn. My phone vibrates, I think to myself. It better not be that old man. I take the phone out of my pocket, it slips before I could see the caller and falls on the floor. I pick it up, look at it. It's PEG TV. I answer it, it's the executive producer. We say our hello's and he asks me if I had to pick either the paid internship or and part time which one would it be? I say, the part time. He says, you got it. I couldn't believe it. The funny thing is, I was hoping he was going to ask me which one I wanted. I thanked him and he said, thank you and for all that you do. So It was quite exciting that I got the job. I just hope it works out. I asked him about August 8th and the NIN concert and he said he can arrange a day off for me. Sweet. I just need to tell my mom and dad that I'm going. I'll probably do that next week.

Afterwords I went to camelles and bought five shirts for five dollars! Four of them are nice formal shirts the fifth is just for fun. I coudn't pass it up for a dollar. It's a shirt from hannafords and it reads. Im here to help, ask me to be your shopping navagator. I thought it was pretty funny. I should wear it and go to hannafords. That would be funny. One of the shirts is made from a German designer. oooooo. I got my old Iron Man watch working, got a new battery.

The old man called me today. So I just simply told him that Im not interested in spending time with him. He asked why and I said there's no reason to discus it. He continued and started to tell me what we could do and asked me again what was wrong and if there was something we could talk about. I said, no, there's no point. He said, well I guess we'll just say hi when we see each other. And that was it. Hopefully he won't call again. I did feel kinda bad, but i just needed to end this before I got too far. I am not willing to take any chances with him or any other old man. Or old woman.

I also went to sewards and told tom that my last day is July 4th. He was happy about that! Not really though. I said, I thought I should tell you that July 4th is my last day. He said, What! I said, I got a job at PEG TV. He asked, is it a full time? I said, no it's part time. He went, huh, started to walk away then he said, good luck. Lisa was looking at me and said, what'd you do? I said, July 4th is my last day. She said, no sewards is your future! We both laughed.

I did some more work on the art for the cd. nice and collagey.

old man

Today after work I met with my "client" for the photography. Just so you know he's a very skinny man about 50 something years old. First we went to the library to check the bullentin board. We then went to the country club to get info on the dinning hall. When we got outside the older man said he wanted to go to middleberry to take the pictures, do some shopping and go eat at the a&w. I just went along with it. I was thinking that this is kinda weird. Especially since he asked me what I wanted to do, when it was he who asked me to take the pictures.

When we got into Middleberry we first went to tj max, he got some biscotti sticks. We then went to hanafords where he got some more stuff. I felt like I was down in NJ going shopping with my grandma! weird. We went to the bank so he could get some more money and then drove into the village of middleberry.

There we first went to a bakery and I got a white chocolate chip cookie (it was pretty good), he pointed out the fancy restaurnats that are good places to go to. We contunued and walked around, went to the falls, took some pics, walked across the bridge, took some pics, walked around some more, went to some stores. We went to this one fancy store where he was talking to the woman at the cash register and she asked if we are having a good day and he said that we are. He then said to me, "I don't mean to speak for you". He put his arm around my shoulders and said "your having fun right?" then we got back in the car and went to the a&w. We got some food, talked, he asked if I wanted to find a country road to get some more shots. I said I probably shouldn't and need to get back home.

We got back into rutland, he asked if he could go to Tennybrooke so he could break a ten to pay me for gas. He came back and I asked him where does he live so I can bring him back home. With hesitation he told me that he knows someone who is trying to destroy his life and everyone he meets. So he told me to drop him off at the Main St park. I though this was pretty weird. The fact that he doesn't want me to drop him off at his house, but someplace close to where he lives. Before he left he asked if I would like to plan to do something else. I was cought off guard, I was not expecting him to say that. I said I don't know when I would be available I would have to check and see. He said "well Im busy tomorrow and saturday how about sunday I call?" I said "I'm not sure". He said "how about if you plan what we'll do and I'll call on monday". I said ok. He put his hand on my shoulder and said, I had fun today. He got out of my car, got his stuff, said bye and I drove off.

When I got home I talked to my mom and dad about it and told them I felt like he wanted to be my "friend". We all agreed that was pretty weird and he needs to stay away. My dad said I just need to tell him that Im not interested. plain and simple. I don't want to spend any time with him so I just need to tell him flat out. Hopefully if I tell him that he'll understand and won't bother me anymore.

Im guessing he's probably a lonely man but I am way too young for him. WAY TOO YOUNG! If he was around my age and fit my type then I would pursue. But he's not so please leave me alone.

passing notes, I told her

When ariane and I were passing notes, I told her something that I have never told anyone else. I won't say what it is since this is a public forum. Im not really that comfortable saying it. I should be but Im afraid that people wouldn't take me seriously and that would hurt me because this is a very important part of my life and I have been struggling with it for sometime. I don't know If I'll ever get clarification or if I'll be in wonderment for my whole life. I hope not.

Im meeting my client for the photography tomorrow. I have no idea what he wants me to take pictures of. He never told me. Hopefully he will.

Ryan bought the NIN tickets, so now I really hope my possibly future boss won't mind me taking august 8th off. I'll just tell him that we planned to go before I applied for the job. Ryan told me to be assertive with him as well. Im sure he won't mind. He seems like a nice guy.

THIS IS CHEESE CAKE!

I went for my PEG interview today and it went fairly well. The executive producer said he wasn't sure what position to give me. The one at CSC or at the station. I hope he gives me the one at the station since that job will have more of a future. And if I get that job I won't have to do an internship I can do a project, the choose your own adventure DVD. :) I video taped a school board meeting, but the forget to leave a time card so I have to go to the station tomorrow and fill one out. Arian and I were passing notes at work yesterday night. It was fun. Im going to bed. oh and I saw meet the spartans. not bad.

big storm

big rain storm yesterday. lost the power. flooding. rioting.murder.cannibalism.necrophila. Randy wants to make an anti smoking ad with me justin and some other kid named cliff. So Randy came over last night ( I gave him a ride in the storm) and we chit chatted. He said my room is very cool. He wants to shoot up in montpeiler. vt capital. We are going to plan to shoot on July 11th. I just listened to the final round of listening to the new songs. Next I'll put them on a cd in the order I want them in and listen to them in that order. It was crazy busy at work today, papa day. I gave my papa a photo album of pics of the cabin. Arian said her ryan and I should go kyakin. That'd be fun. I told her I can't swim and she said that's all right they kiyaks are very safe. meow. I need to call eric. keep on forgetting.

Response to Matts response to Always Afraid

I just wanted to thank matt for writing about my movie Always Afraid. It's a very good insight to the video and correctly talks about what I was trying to capture with it. Like the cinema verita feel. I LOVE CINEMA VERITA. ok moving on. I will be putting it on you tube. In fact I'll do it right after dinner because I will be eating dinner in a couple of minutes. Oh and people should definitly read the review, its under "torches and tragedies" in the linkes sections over there--> Kind of a emo title but oh well. other than that I was once again in a depressed mood all day at work! yey. not really yey.

its not the news, its cnn

The race on tuesday went pretty good. I got 8th place, not sure out of how many, lets see if the posted the results yet (checking results) they do. I got 8th place out of 39 with a time of 28min. Not bad. Half way through the race it started to thunder, then right after I finished it started to rain hard, with thunder and lightning! YIKES! Let's just say I didn't hang around for too long. Now I'm going to be training for the races, more long runs, trail runs and more hill sprints.

Wednesday I bought the white album. It's pretty good. Im listening to it now on my new headphones which I got today. On the Helter Skleter track. After I listened to HS I listened to the White Zombie version to compare, they're pretty similar but WZ left out the line, you may be a lover but no dancer. I guess Rob zombie didn't want to say the word love.

I started on the girl in a bikini with a jap mask walking a dog poster. Today I started to photo copy the rex morgan pictures for my rex morgan collage.

All should see the movie "The Onion" Those damn blacks and their taffy! (it's from the movie)

falafel

The internet is going to so slow today. I saw the movie Fast Food Nation last night and it was very good. I never want to eat at Mcdonalds or any fast food place again. EVER! Tomorrow Im going to be running in the Sunset Race in Rutland at Pine Hill Park. I guess they've been doing it for about 7 years. I've never heard of it. I'm writing in the afternoon since I have to work tonight. Matt told me I should make falafel, I looked it up, looks interesting. I should replace those veggie balls with meat balls but tell him it's veggie balls and feed it to him!! Oh that whould be sooo mean. I wouldn't do that...or would I? I have been adding the finishing touches to the cd, added a few more sound clips. This week the audio part of the cd should be done. yey. Still working on the book. I started an inventroy for all of the characters to keep continuity striaght.

work work

Today I mostly just worked. I worked from 11-4 then when I was at work found out I had to be back her from 6-9. Yeah, I know what your thinking! Gutter brain! When I went back to work at 6 I only had to stay until 8, it just wasn't happing, said tom. Tom's wife Karen and I talked food today, our love for weird combonations and how I made the sloppy shepherds pie. I recorded some more vocals tracks, its coming along nicely. I think this CD will definitly be a lot better than the last, mainly vocals. The mixing of the last cd was pretty good, so I thought. I want to do the art work in the same vein as the last album mixed with the second album. I think the art work for the 2nd album was the best. Well I don't think anything will be happing with the IG I met, since she's going to school in NJ and I havn't talked to her in a little while, about a week. Guess I should stick with real people.

so many mistakes! WHY!

Not to much happened today. I was wicked busy at work, non stop the entire shift. I had to get supplies for tom and the waitress and start peeling potatoes which I never finished. Tom was in a rather strange mood. When he was on the cook line he said, "We sold a meat loaf! We sold a meat loaf!" I sounded quite excited. Weird. Before I went to work I recorded some new vocals for my cd. They came out pretty good. More of a yelling aproach. Since I was so tired after work I decided to skip running but I still did my stretching. I also watched the NIN Live DVD. Hopefully I'll be able to see them in concert. Nothing from PEG yet. I worked on a new song, What if. Its coming along pretty good. I saw larry holden on the news (the filmmaker I met last year). brough back at mix of good and not so good memories. Oh well. Not to much else going on. Did more work on my book, so many mistakes! WHY!

It wasn't bad

Since I wanted to go running today and return the zion movie today I decieded to run to Blockbuster, return the movie then run back. It was a pretty good run to, 4miles in 32:37 thats like a 8 min pace. Not too bad.

At around 5:30 Ryan came over and I cooked up my shepherds pie remix. It came out pretty good, I was quite pleased with it. Mom, Dad and Ryan liked it as well. Cooking it was fun too, I wouldn't want to do it as a job but casually it was fun. Ryan brought a brownie truffle, very sweet, very rich, very good. We had a good time at dinner.

I finally saw that movie shopping. It wasn't bad.

Lately I've been getting kinda depressed. I don't know why, lack of compianionship maybe? Don't like my job? All of the above? just sometimes I just don't want to do anything and I don't find enjoyment or a reason why I should like it. IDK. I think I've gotten so attached to having a gf that I need one to be truely happy. It's not the sex or any of that. It's just being able to be close to someone. Someone to hold and someone to hold you. I certainly can't do that with a guy like Ryan. Unless I was gay or bi. I guess I just need to keep on pushing until something better comes along.

PEG shephards candy zion book

Well I went down to PEG about the job and they said they were going over the resumes now and would call me to set up an interview. I left them a printed out resueme which had two letter of refrences. So hopefully that will help. But my concern is will I still be able to go to the NIN concert (that is that Ryan and I are going) if I get a job at PEG. I hope so.

I went to Rutland Discount to get my ingredients for my shepherds pie remix. There I saw angie and her mom working there. Angie looked happy working (sarcasm). That store really does look like a old russian communist store. Hopefully the shepherds pie remix will come out good, sloppy joe, fried potato slices and cream corn!

I watched the protocals of zion doc, it wasn't bad. I stopped watching at around 40min since I felt like I saw everything they had to offer. I'll return it tomorrow. Matt just told me I should watch Hard Candy. I want to. I want his hard candy! jk.

I started editing the third and final draft of my book, so many mistakes! Hopefully the book will be a good end result.

Hog Pog is on youtube!

wicked cool!

On Sunday I gave Matt and Ryan their copy of the totalitarian movie, "Always Afraid". Ryan told me today that he liked it, hopefully matt will too. If not, screw you! JK. I just need to call Justin, I'll do that tomorrow. Ryan let me borrow a doc on antisemites blaming the jews for 911 and that they are going to take over the world, but I left it in his locker tonight, I'll have to go back tomorrow (on my day off!) and get it.

I had another coversation with the new IG I meet. It went pretty good, talks lots. At around 10~10:30 she said she had to go, I thought that's pretty eailer comparied to friday night. But I remembered that she's in her senior year in HS. It seems so late that HS students get out in June.

I finally got the files made for the hog pog animations to post on you tube. For some reason it didn't want to work with windows movie files. oh well, I got it working.

I listened to this cool audio illusion, where you felt like you were really in a baraber shop. The technique is simple (two mics) but very affective. They should (I should) record music like that, it would be cool espically if you rotated the mics to make it sound like the sound was moving around you.

Tom must have been in a good mood today because as I was leaving he told me to have a good day off! I was shocked! In a good way. I started running longer distances this week. I decieded I would do that after I beat my 2 miles time by a minute. Time to up grade, up grade. Ryan said he would find out if he can go to the NIN concert. It would be so cool if he could. It'd be like wicked awesome. We'd have so much fun!

PEG TV hasn't replied yet. Matt said to go in person, maybe I should do that tomorrow.