yep

Well I thought I would be able to go to my sisters wedding, but I guess not. She's getting married when I'm still in school. But I guess she wants to have some kind of reception. Why couldn't she just get married then? Idk. My grandmum and mum want me to book a flight, rent a car and a hotel room for them. That should be fun, cough cough.

I've been playing a game called zombie panic, its a lot of fun.

perfect, just perfect!

Well I thought I would be able to go to my sisters wedding, may 8th but I don't get out of school until may 16th. There goes that plan. My mom did say my sister and her soon to be husband would be coming up to NJ. I just think it was kind of selfish to plan a wedding when almost no one can go.

I started online dating again, even though I know I said I wouldn't. But I figured why not, how could it hurt. The first girl I sent a message too, looked at my profile but never sent me a message back. My friend D, said I shouldn't send a message, just leave it. I tried to contact someone else. I sent her a message yesterday, hopefully this one will pull through. I think the message I sent is better than then the other one I rectenly sent.

I found a website that keeps stats of your running routine, its pretty cool. Maybe it'll help me keep on running. My non fiction writing teacher is having us read a chapter on marijuana and I said to the student next to me, "next class we're going to experience the chapter." It was funny. I had a shoot on wednesday for the movie, and just like before the shoots have been just about perfect.

I had another shoot with justin today. Just got a moc interview with his cop character. We shot this really funny scene of him going berserk about graffiti on the wall. It was really funny. So far the shoots and editing have been very sucessfull. I think easter should be called Jesus Resurection Day because with a name like easter people lose track of what it actually is about. the death of santa. I want to do a college but im not sure what to do it about. E said monkeys and cocaine.

I've had two shoots for the totalitarian movie. The second shoot was with my friends R, M, and J. It was very successfull. We started right on time got everything shot and finished on time. I heard J tell R in the car that I'm a realist film maker. I think he means neorealist, not to be picky. He said that because we did a scene were J arrested R and R had no idea it was going to happen and it seemd pretty real. I just have to get a close up of R since he was smiling when we first showed up. Other than that things are going really well. I have an idea to do some censorship in the movie. The government found the video kept it locked up, censorded it and when the totalitarian governement was taking back to democracy it was realeased but all of the original footage is gone so we are stuck with the censored version. Im doing that also because you can see the Deter badge on Justins coat and we can't have that. Next time I'll just cover it with black tape or something.

This saturday I'm shooting some footage of a Iraq war protest. M who is organizing the protest said a girl named L asked if she can shoot too and she knows me from video media class. I don't know any 16 year old girl named L. Tomorrow I'm hoping to see DW at the tech center. I have some DVD-R's for him. Maybe he knows her.

Yey Im a realist film maker!

Pandora radio is cool.

wedding

my sister is getting married and I won't be able to go. She lives down south and I have no way of gettting down there. I don't know why she decided to get married so soon. Only her boyfriends family is able to go down there, no one from this side. I wish I could go. Hopefully she can go to my wedding, whenever that will be.

tired

wow, its almost been a whole week since i've written last. I just kept on forgeting. I went to a art show today in downtown. It was pretty good, a lot of old people. think I might have been the youngest person there! There was one piece that was a portriat of two people and it was made entirely out of rusted metal. It was pretty cool. My sister said she's getting married in May. I don't know how she thinks that's a good idea. No one from my family will be able to make it down there, its too soon to schedual, can't get time off from work. I've been working on some new music. Vocals are so hard to do. Espically if you give your self some sort of high standard, or just don't want to sound stewped. I was tired for most of today, tired legs. I went running yesterday. The last time I went running was like four months ago. I made a cd of rare and unreleased white zombie songs, its pretty goood.

ugh

good thing im not in eigth grade

Sunday I had my survival skills class on wheelville road and it was cold! my feet we're practicly frozen solid. Now my big toe hurts, hope its not because they were cold. I learned how to make a cake substance called ash cake. It tastes pretty good. The rest of the student skinned animals but i couldn't even look at it. The teacher said that was fine, not everyone can stomach it. After that I had some dinner, which was actually my lunch and went straight to work. I was pretty busy, even though not much happened on the floor. I got home just in time for the season finale of breaking bad. I keep on forgetting to ask ryan about shooting on wednesday for the movie, ugh.

Today, e,a, and I meet at the old church to practice our songs. We started with the song from last session and worked on a new one I directed. I was on gutiar for the new song and used the flanger pedal. I've been thinking of calling B and ask how her interview went, and how she is. I found a program called shit talker, its a computar voice program, its pretty cool. I have to do a presentation tomorrow for future of communications, ugh. Not to excited. I'm going to have to get to school early to finish my power point since I didn't bring my usb drive to practice so I could go straight to the computer lab right after practice.

I found another program which lets me take videos off of you tube and i found some rare and unreleased white zombie songs. As of now Im taking the audio out and I'll put them onto a cd for myslef and e,and a.

B

Tuesday was a very good day. On monday night I got to talk to my good friend B online. She told me that on tuesday she and her roommate are going to CSC, so her roommate can visit her boyfriend. Since B had nothing really planned I got to spend some time with her. I should probably tell you that when we first met, we almost started dating a couple of times, but it was bad timing. We went out to friendlys for lunch and talked for a good 3hrs. She always carries out long but good conversations. We talked about how I should visit her sometime during the summer and we could go to the beach. That would be fun. I bet my dad would think it would be a great idea (scarism) espically if Im driving my car. I thought that she was leaving on wednesday or tuesday night, but they didn't leave until today, thursday. I found this out when I was in the computer lab doing homework and I look up to see becky walking by the window. She looks in and sees me and runs over to me. So we got to see each other one last time before who knows when. I guess she hasn't been getting along very well with her roommate. hopefully they'll be able to work it out.

After talking with B, I've decided that Im not going to pursue my xgf anymore. That part of my life is over.

On wednesday my dad started his new job at a bakery so I got the house to myself and was able to record vocals for my newest cd. I experiemented with a metal can and a walkie talkie set.

taco

With the cd that my xgf gave me, which i love the song 9crimes, I'm making a remix song saying how I feel and I'm going to give that to her. I got a phone call at 10 am when I was at work and I had no idea who it was. So I tried calling back at around 3, but no one answered. At 7:20 I tried again, I heard a girl answer but the line got disconnected. At 7:30 I tried again and it ended up being a wrong number. There goes my excitement. I guess Im now part of ryans crew to go to taco bell. the other members are a waitress at my work and three of her friends. It should be fun. I saw a trailer for a short movie called ApocalypseOz. It looks very interesting. A mix between the Wizard of Oz and Apocalypse Now.